This was our 
              head hooch maid Tanh.
            This particular noon, 2 days after 
              the OP9 incident, as we awoke, we heard the hooch maids in their sing 
              song, melodic chatter seem quite a bit more vocal than normal. One of 
              our hooch maids, named Tanh, was an elderly, pretty articulate lady who 
              was well educated and could speak very good English. She was the wife 
              of the mayor of Cam Ranh village/city. I really liked Tanh and learned 
              a lot from her about her culture and the Vietnamese people from the many 
              talks I had with her at the hooch. She used to bring us traditional Vietnamese 
              food to try for lunch and some was good and some was just barely or not 
              palatable. I was the only one of guys to have the guts to try the food. 
            
             Anyway, we asked what all the 
              ruckus was about and Tanh explained in her very good English that the 
              village was very upset and outraged about a local fisherman, his wife 
              and 5 children that had been out fishing and had motor trouble while out 
              on the sea side of the peninsula. She then exclaimed that all of them 
              had been killed. The words hit me like the recoil of my .50 Cal. I, of 
              course, never responded or mentioned a thing, mostly due to shame and 
              guilt. None of my hooch mates said a word either, since some of them were 
              track team members also. This was pretty shocking and unexpected news. 
              The truth of that night out on OP9, to my knowledge, was never known by 
              Tanh or any of the other hundreds of hooch maids. The incident was never 
              brought up by anybody that was aware of what happened after that day. 
              Because of Tanh's ability to speak very good English, the news that day 
              was a burden I carried for the rest of the year I was at Cam Ranh Bay and for all 
              these many, many years since, right up to today. 
             I really don't dwell on this nor do I lose 
              sleep over it, but there is always that lingering doubt that festers in 
              the back of my mind. I try to convince myself that things do happen in 
              war that you can't predict or avoid. Deep inside it haunts me to think 
              that the cries of outrage from the people of that village lay directly 
              on my shoulders and my conscience forever, if it was true. I have silently 
              told myself many times that this was just one of the many tragedies of 
              war or it may really have been some propaganda or maybe that it did not 
              even happen. I know I was only doing my duty and following orders. I also 
              understand that many, many innocent people suffer and die in war torn 
              countries. I only hope the incident the hooch maids were upset about that 
              day was really propaganda or some anti American untruth. I guess only 
              God knows the truth and will forgive.
            So ... If I could change just one thing about my tour at CRB, from 
              March 1, 1970 until March 2, 1971, it would be to have never heard that 
              news..., that it may have been by my hand that an innocent family, a man, 
              his wife and 5 small children, in trouble may have perished due to my direct 
              involvement. I know that all of us that served in the RVN realized that 
              we all technically had some indirect responsibility for some innocent peoples 
              lives being lost, due to bombing runs, suspected enemy village strafing 
              etc. and just by being in country during the war. The direct responsibility, 
              when it involves you personally, is a little harder to cope with.